Attitude

The last little while has presented its own challenges, especially as I apply for jobs, then sit at home waiting around for a call, but there is nothing. I've allowed myself to slip into a negative attitude a lot in this past week or two. But my husband had a word from God for me the other day. He said that this time of waiting is a time of figuring out who I am - finding my identity in God. Wow, and I thought I was just sitting and waiting for something good to happen to me! So, I've been trying to see how I react to things. I've noticed that I really overreact to the smallest things, and I let it take over my whole day, hurting those around me in the process. And that's just not fair. So, today, I knew it was going to be a tough one, with the pressure of entertaining and meeting others' standards, but I decided that it was going to be a good day. I know that God is with me and I can catch glimpses of Him as I go throughout my day, if only I keep my eyes open. But if I let myself fall into that darkness, I will miss it completely. So far, it's gone really well. I'm really going to have to remember this day the next time something tries to get in the way. Boy, am I glad that I have a God and a husband that continue to love me as I continue to discover more things to work on in my life!!