I'm me

God's timing is so good! He's been working on me for a few years now, all to prepare me for this next chapter in my life. I'm so glad that He is God and I'm not. My plans and schedules never would have created something this beautiful. And He knows exactly what I need, what I desire, and who I am in the depths of my being. Any attempt on my part to fill those areas would be artificial, but in His perfect knowledge and love, He places the pieces so perfectly. He says to me, "There is no more you can do. Sit back and enjoy." I just need to receive the gift of His love and accept His grace.

He's also been showing me that He made me who I am for a reason, but I can't try to define myself by putting myself in a box. All those personality tests try to restrict you to a comprehensive set of personalities, but they are so limiting. So rather than just being who I am, I have allowed myself to think that I must fit into this neat little category. But I'm more than a four-letter description of a personality. I'm me. I'm me, the way God made me. And He's never finished with this work He's started in me. So, I have made some statements semi-recently about my future work which need to be revisited. I'm not this hard-hearted selfish person that I feel I'm stereotyped as. I have a heart for getting the Good News to those who have never heard it before. When I am fortunate enough to connect with someone, it gives me the most wonderful feeling. I do care for people. I do feel compassion. With a good support system in place, I feel like I could do missionary work. I just need to embrace God's design for me and not focus so much on categories and types. And as I do that, God will bring me into those places of beauty.